I was getting hopeful around May, believing we would follow Italy and some other countries and that we might be able to contain this virus somehow, slowly getting back to some sort of normal - but particularly I felt we could look forward to all our plans that had been in pause for months.
Since early July I am instead becoming more concerned, sad. I can't see the improvements. I try not too read too many articles because it just makes me more anxious. I have all my close family overseas and cannot see them. Decided to send ds to live w his father in Europe for the school year (HS) because at least there the school year is taking place as usual, also he already has some friends and likes the place. He has left only last week and I already miss him tremendously.
I am stuck in a bad marriage, had been looking for options and still am. But again, things are in a "pause" mode, who knows for how long. Dh is not supportive at all (never has been) no empathy, all absorbed in himself and I just have to continue walking on eggshells and be thankful if he does not have one his blowouts over nothing...
Anyway, I searched for something to connect to people, finally joined a meetup group on Zoom, to practice a foreign language. It is the one thing I look forward to every week. I try to exercise, I meditate. But honestly I am one of those who are still terrified when thinking about this virus. Could we have a glimpse of hope that a vaccine or cure (when developed) will actually help, that we can move forward, look for opportunities and better time ahead?
Not looking for answers to my situation and I know this is affecting all of us in one way or another.
Just maybe a positive word. Thank you for reading.